reflection

• How’s your love life? bruised and broken

• Have you ever dissociated? If so, how often? for far too long. months/ a year maybe?

• Do you have any other diagnoses? Which ones? mood disorder/anxiety 

• Do you get mood swings? yep

• What kind of impulsive decisions have you made? To get on a plane and leave my life overnight…

• Is there anything you do that helps keep you grounded? sleep as much as i can.

• What’s your relationship with your family? loving, but i’m not sure how much they really understand or know of me.

• Are you a perfectionist? absolutely.

• Do you ever become obsessive? I become obsessively motivated or not motivated at all. It’s very black & white…

• Day 15; Have you ever changed your opinions, depending on the people you are with? Yes, very much so.

• Does your style (clothing, hair, etc.) change a lot? negative.

• What are five of your biggest fears? loosing control, spiders, roller coasters, LSD, FLYING.

• Do you worry what people think of you? somedays more than others

• What are some lyrics that describe what you’re going through right now?
  Blacker the bruise
  Coming up clear
  Vow to get better 

• How do you usually express yourself? talking

• What’s a random story from your childhood? I put my head in a pelicans mouth.

• How do you think other people see you? I’ve been told i’m quiet, special, caring, analytical and innocent… 

• If you could pick one year of your life to give back and start over, which one?
  1999 

• Do you have any bad habits? smoking

• Do you consider yourself high-functioning or low-functioning? low

• If your mind was a house, what would the house look like? a glass house with broken windows and holes in the roof

• What is your “safe place” when you are upset? in someones arms

tooooo much karnivool today, I think i’m gonna explode with joy.